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:Well that’s a lot longer than I planned, and I feel funny posting all :this here, but the schizo group isn’t that great, and you guys & gals :certainly are! Dear Tono, Please don`t feel funny, you are among friends. Nothing you said makes me anyways 
{{{{{Tono}}}}}
Thanks Jackie. In addition to all the other crap, I still have GAD and P/A, so I know I am always welcome here. You couldn’t get rid of me if you tried! :-) Tono — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm
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Thanks Jackie. In addition to all the other crap, I still have GAD and P/A, so I know I am always welcome here. You couldn’t get rid of me if you tried! :-) Tono
Tono, all those who are nervous are welcome here. Even if you’re just a tiny bit nervous! Chip :^) — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm
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Sometimes your wholr style of writing makes me giggle You start of in a possitive way and there you go ! guess I do that a lot? I’ll have to try and watch myself. It seems like I’m an expert at making myself feel worse!
Yes you can do that in the course of one posting 
You start of with all the nice things and there you go ! Anyway I visited at my sisters longer than I had planned. I wasn’t feeling well and wanted to leave but I was too afraid to say I am leaving! Well OK, eventually I did say I’m leaving. I didn’t just sneek out the door! :-) There! I ended with a smile, and one more for you. :-) Tono
Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay )))))) Love from Anna — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm
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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – :Well that’s a lot longer than I planned, and I feel funny posting all :this here, but the schizo group isn’t that great, and you guys & gals :certainly are! Dear Tono, Please don`t feel funny, you are among friends. Nothing you said makes me anyways {{{{{Tono}}}}} Jackie ~*~Self is the only prison that can ever bind the soul~*~ ~ Henry van Dyke ~
Gladly seconded. Philip — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm
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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – you describe I can relate to. When I am really bad I allways think that I only excist in the eyes of others. I think what they think about me constantly. I don’t have this so much anymore but I sure knows it feels odd and "beside yourself" Much love from Anna Thanks Anna, besides oversleeping this morning and missing my favorite AA meeting, (I already screamed "XXX Fxxxing Damn it" as loud as I could), I’m actually doing fairly well lately. I am dreading going to my sisters house to see my other sister who is in town for only a day. Just going to her house gives me anxiety, plus they will probably be acting strangely again with the alcohol around me, like it’s going to jump out and get me. But that won’t be enough to keep them from drinking, they will just be weird about it. I come from a large family, and at least half or more are alcoholics. I’m the only one who admitted it and quit. One did admit to me that he knows he is an alcoholic, but he doesn’t know how he could possibly live life without it. 
Boy of boy, I sure have a way of depressing myself. Tono Sometimes your wholr style of writing makes me giggle You start of in a possitive way and there you go !
I guess I do that a lot? I’ll have to try and watch myself. It seems like I’m an expert at making myself feel worse! Anyway I visited at my sisters longer than I had planned. I wasn’t feeling well and wanted to leave but I was too afraid to say I am leaving! Well OK, eventually I did say I’m leaving. I didn’t just sneek out the door! :-) There! I ended with a smile, and one more for you. :-) Tono — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm
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:Well that’s a lot longer than I planned, and I feel funny posting all :this here, but the schizo group isn’t that great, and you guys & gals :certainly are! Dear Tono, Please don`t feel funny, you are among friends. Nothing you said makes me anyways {{{{{Tono}}}}} Jackie ~*~Self is the only prison that can ever bind the soul~*~ ~ Henry van Dyke ~ — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm
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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Thanks everyone. I guess this isn’t something that I can take when feeling bad and get quick results. I was hoping to keep the dosage low but take more as needed. Then again, I’m seeing a new Dr. in 11 days so the meds could change anyway. In my last shrinkette appointment, I told her more things that were just reveled to me about being on the schizo affective side. Basically, it was about a car I owned, and how I sincerely thought it was better than any other car of the same make model and year. It was faster, cornered better, stopped better, you name it, it was better. I remember feeling this way, but I didn’t remember I had told my girlfriend at the time. Well I just talked to her the other day, and she remembers it quite well! Then at the shrinkettes, we got into this conversation about problems going food shopping, and she asked me what bothered me about it. Basically, I worry about everyone in the store watching me. Did I buy something stupid? Seems to be that I always feel everyone pays attention to what I’m doing, when in fact, most people are just worried about getting their own shopping done, not watching what I put in my cart! Then she asked about other things that worry me in the same way. I replied, if I’m mowing the lawn, I worry the neighbors might think "why did he wait so long", or "why is he cutting it already", or "why doesn’t he do it this way, or that way"? Basically, I live my life constantly worried about what others think of me. Driving down the highway, if someone is passing me, often I hide my cigarette so they don’t judge me for being a smoker. If I make a few short trips from the house and back again, I worry what the neighbors think I’m doing. Get the idea? I feel I am constantly being judged by everyone, everywhere. It doesn’t end. Then we got into OCD and how things have to go my way. I told her that quite a few times I have walked out of stores, leaving a full shopping cart of items I just picked out, just because I was disgusted at the long lines and too few cashiers. Sometimes it was anxiety, but lot’s of times I just said "fuck it", if they want to have long lines, they can put my stuff back on the shelves! Even though I just spent a lot of time picking out all the stuff, I do it just to prove my point. So I end up hurting myself. Just on my way home today, I was approaching a part of the road where it narrows to one lane each direction. I was in the right lane, and the sign said "left lane ends". This girl stayed aside of me, just a little behind and on my left. She stayed there, blowing the horn driving in the yellow caution lines, until she was almost at the point of going the wrong way down the two lane road. I was in the right, she was slightly behind me and should have slowed down and moved to the right lane. After backing off, she just kept shooting me the finger. I was laughing and I waved to her, yet I was shaking at the same time. Then when it was two lanes again, she passed me, I smiled and waved, she shot me the bird again. When we got to a long red light, I couldn’t help getting out of the truck and running up to her and kindly told her that she should read the sign, I had the right of way, not her. She just said "Oh, Ok". I felt good, I proved my point (well hopefully next time she will read the sign). But then I had to turn off where I didn’t want to, just so she wouldn’t think I was following her. (sigh) Well that’s a lot longer than I planned, and I feel funny posting all this here, but the schizo group isn’t that great, and you guys & gals certainly are! Tono you describe I can relate to. When I am really bad I allways think that I only excist in the eyes of others. I think what they think about me constantly. I don’t have this so much anymore but I sure knows it feels odd and "beside yourself" Much love from Anna Thanks Anna, besides oversleeping this morning and missing my favorite AA meeting, (I already screamed "XXX Fxxxing Damn it" as loud as I could), I’m actually doing fairly well lately. I am dreading going to my sisters house to see my other sister who is in town for only a day. Just going to her house gives me anxiety, plus they will probably be acting strangely again with the alcohol around me, like it’s going to jump out and get me. But that won’t be enough to keep them from drinking, they will just be weird about it. I come from a large family, and at least half or more are alcoholics. I’m the only one who admitted it and quit. One did admit to me that he knows he is an alcoholic, but he doesn’t know how he could possibly live life without it. Boy of boy, I sure have a way of depressing myself. Tono
Sometimes your wholr style of writing makes me giggle You start of in a possitive way and there you go ! i hope you keep feeling proud about not drinking it is quit an achievement love from Anna — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm
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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Thanks everyone. I guess this isn’t something that I can take when feeling bad and get quick results. I was hoping to keep the dosage low but take more as needed. Then again, I’m seeing a new Dr. in 11 days so the meds could change anyway. In my last shrinkette appointment, I told her more things that were just reveled to me about being on the schizo affective side. Basically, it was about a car I owned, and how I sincerely thought it was better than any other car of the same make model and year. It was faster, cornered better, stopped better, you name it, it was better. I remember feeling this way, but I didn’t remember I had told my girlfriend at the time. Well I just talked to her the other day, and she remembers it quite well! Then at the shrinkettes, we got into this conversation about problems going food shopping, and she asked me what bothered me about it. Basically, I worry about everyone in the store watching me. Did I buy something stupid? Seems to be that I always feel everyone pays attention to what I’m doing, when in fact, most people are just worried about getting their own shopping done, not watching what I put in my cart! Then she asked about other things that worry me in the same way. I replied, if I’m mowing the lawn, I worry the neighbors might think "why did he wait so long", or "why is he cutting it already", or "why doesn’t he do it this way, or that way"? Basically, I live my life constantly worried about what others think of me. Driving down the highway, if someone is passing me, often I hide my cigarette so they don’t judge me for being a smoker. If I make a few short trips from the house and back again, I worry what the neighbors think I’m doing. Get the idea? I feel I am constantly being judged by everyone, everywhere. It doesn’t end. Then we got into OCD and how things have to go my way. I told her that quite a few times I have walked out of stores, leaving a full shopping cart of items I just picked out, just because I was disgusted at the long lines and too few cashiers. Sometimes it was anxiety, but lot’s of times I just said "fuck it", if they want to have long lines, they can put my stuff back on the shelves! Even though I just spent a lot of time picking out all the stuff, I do it just to prove my point. So I end up hurting myself. Just on my way home today, I was approaching a part of the road where it narrows to one lane each direction. I was in the right lane, and the sign said "left lane ends". This girl stayed aside of me, just a little behind and on my left. She stayed there, blowing the horn driving in the yellow caution lines, until she was almost at the point of going the wrong way down the two lane road. I was in the right, she was slightly behind me and should have slowed down and moved to the right lane. After backing off, she just kept shooting me the finger. I was laughing and I waved to her, yet I was shaking at the same time. Then when it was two lanes again, she passed me, I smiled and waved, she shot me the bird again. When we got to a long red light, I couldn’t help getting out of the truck and running up to her and kindly told her that she should read the sign, I had the right of way, not her. She just said "Oh, Ok". I felt good, I proved my point (well hopefully next time she will read the sign). But then I had to turn off where I didn’t want to, just so she wouldn’t think I was following her. (sigh) Well that’s a lot longer than I planned, and I feel funny posting all this here, but the schizo group isn’t that great, and you guys & gals certainly are! Tono you describe I can relate to. When I am really bad I allways think that I only excist in the eyes of others. I think what they think about me constantly. I don’t have this so much anymore but I sure knows it feels odd and "beside yourself" Much love from Anna Thanks Anna, besides oversleeping this morning and missing my favorite AA meeting, (I already screamed "XXX Fxxxing Damn it" as loud as I could), I’m actually doing fairly well lately. I am dreading going to my sisters house to see my other sister who is in town for only a day. Just going to her house gives me anxiety, plus they will probably be acting strangely again with the alcohol around me, like it’s going to jump out and get me. But that won’t be enough to keep them from drinking, they will just be weird about it. I come from a large family, and at least half or more are alcoholics. I’m the only one who admitted it and quit. One did admit to me that he knows he is an alcoholic, but he doesn’t know how he could possibly live life without it. Boy of boy, I sure have a way of depressing myself. Tono
But Tono, Look how strong you are in comparison. You did quit. love Meryl — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm
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Does seroquel go directly to the blood stream or does it have to be metabolized or what ever it is you call it. What I’m actually asking is, will leaving it under your tounge make it work faster? Tono — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm
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Does seroquel go directly to the blood stream or does it have to be metabolized or what ever it is you call it. What I’m actually asking is, will leaving it under your tounge make it work faster? Tono
sent a much longer message last night -why it didn’t show up is beyond me simple answer-swallowing them works better-they are a cumulative type med and also not desisgned for sublingual use — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm
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Does seroquel go directly to the blood stream simple answer-swallowing them works better-they are a cumulative type med and also not desisgned for sublingual use
LM, how long does it take for Seroquel to start working? Days or weeks? Chip — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm
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Does seroquel go directly to the blood stream or does it have to be metabolized or what ever it is you call it. What I’m actually asking is, will leaving it under your tounge make it work faster? Tono
Hi I haven’t taken this drug myself but I’ll paste you the information I have from my text on Psyciatric Drugs, basically it looks like its metabolized by your liver so I wouldn’t put it under my tongue. Quetiapine (Seroquel) Class: Dibenzothiazepine Mechanism: Quetiapine (Seroquel) is an antagonist at the serotonin-2A, dopamine-2, alpha-1 and 2, and histamine-1 receptors Preparations: 25 mg, 100 mg, and 200 mg tablets Dosage: Initial dosage: 25-50 mg bid, increased by 25-50 mg every 1 to 3 days to a total daily dose of 300-400 mg. Maintenance: Required daily dose can range between 150-750 mg Elderly: Clearance is reduced by 40% in elderly, dosage should be reduced in this population Therapeutic Level: Not established. Metabolism: Half-life is 6 hours, hepatic metabolism (P450 3A4), no active metabolites. Low potential for drug interactions. Side Effect Profile: Orthostatic hypotension may occur during initial dose titration due to alpha-blockade. Somnolence and weight gain may occur due to H1 blockade. Dyspepsia, abdominal pain, and dry mouth may also occur. Clinical Guidelines: May be effective for primary negative symptoms of schizophrenia. Minimal weight gain. Well tolerated. No anticholinergic side effects. Very low incidence of EPS. No sustained elevation of prolactin. Requires bid or tid dosing. — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm
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it looks like its metabolized by your liver so I wouldn’t put it under my
tongue. Why not? Chip — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm
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Does seroquel go directly to the blood stream simple answer-swallowing them works better-they are a cumulative type med and also not desisgned for sublingual use LM, how long does it take for Seroquel to start working? Days or weeks? Chip
it takes about 2 days to reach efective blood and tissue levels and about a week to stabilize per dose-the titration can be ramped up a bit to expediate it LM — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm
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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Does seroquel go directly to the blood stream simple answer-swallowing them works better-they are a cumulative type med and also not desisgned for sublingual use LM, how long does it take for Seroquel to start working? Days or weeks? Chip it takes about 2 days to reach efective blood and tissue levels and about a week to stabilize per dose-the titration can be ramped up a bit to expediate it LM
Thanks everyone. I guess this isn’t something that I can take when feeling bad and get quick results. I was hoping to keep the dosage low but take more as needed. Then again, I’m seeing a new Dr. in 11 days so the meds could change anyway. In my last shrinkette appointment, I told her more things that were just reveled to me about being on the schizo affective side. Basically, it was about a car I owned, and how I sincerely thought it was better than any other car of the same make model and year. It was faster, cornered better, stopped better, you name it, it was better. I remember feeling this way, but I didn’t remember I had told my girlfriend at the time. Well I just talked to her the other day, and she remembers it quite well! Then at the shrinkettes, we got into this conversation about problems going food shopping, and she asked me what bothered me about it. Basically, I worry about everyone in the store watching me. Did I buy something stupid? Seems to be that I always feel everyone pays attention to what I’m doing, when in fact, most people are just worried about getting their own shopping done, not watching what I put in my cart! Then she asked about other things that worry me in the same way. I replied, if I’m mowing the lawn, I worry the neighbors might think "why did he wait so long", or "why is he cutting it already", or "why doesn’t he do it this way, or that way"? Basically, I live my life constantly worried about what others think of me. Driving down the highway, if someone is passing me, often I hide my cigarette so they don’t judge me for being a smoker. If I make a few short trips from the house and back again, I worry what the neighbors think I’m doing. Get the idea? I feel I am constantly being judged by everyone, everywhere. It doesn’t end. Then we got into OCD and how things have to go my way. I told her that quite a few times I have walked out of stores, leaving a full shopping cart of items I just picked out, just because I was disgusted at the long lines and too few cashiers. Sometimes it was anxiety, but lot’s of times I just said "fuck it", if they want to have long lines, they can put my stuff back on the shelves! Even though I just spent a lot of time picking out all the stuff, I do it just to prove my point. So I end up hurting myself. Just on my way home today, I was approaching a part of the road where it narrows to one lane each direction. I was in the right lane, and the sign said "left lane ends". This girl stayed aside of me, just a little behind and on my left. She stayed there, blowing the horn driving in the yellow caution lines, until she was almost at the point of going the wrong way down the two lane road. I was in the right, she was slightly behind me and should have slowed down and moved to the right lane. After backing off, she just kept shooting me the finger. I was laughing and I waved to her, yet I was shaking at the same time. Then when it was two lanes again, she passed me, I smiled and waved, she shot me the bird again. When we got to a long red light, I couldn’t help getting out of the truck and running up to her and kindly told her that she should read the sign, I had the right of way, not her. She just said "Oh, Ok". I felt good, I proved my point (well hopefully next time she will read the sign). But then I had to turn off where I didn’t want to, just so she wouldn’t think I was following her. (sigh) Well that’s a lot longer than I planned, and I feel funny posting all this here, but the schizo group isn’t that great, and you guys & gals certainly are! Tono — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm
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Does seroquel go directly to the blood stream or does it have to be metabolized or what ever it is you call it. What I’m actually asking is, will leaving it under your tounge make it work faster? Tono
seroquel is a dose accumulative action drug-that means you need an accumulated amount of it in serum and brain tissue for it to work effectively. It takes about 2 days to acheive this and possibly up to a week to really get a clear clinical picture as to what it does. The average half life of the active compound is 6 hours with about an hour and a half peak seruum level after taking a pill. So faster administration is highly unlikely to change its effectivenss in antagonising or blocking dopamine and serotonin reuptake in brain tissue. It just doesn’t work like a benzo. Many drugs can be absorbed by sublingual dissolution but some don;t because of many factors ranging from the enzymes in saliva the buffers in the drugs compounding, the stability of the drug and the salts and esters that are used to bind the drug to active chemicals that allow cells to absorb it or the digestive tract to metabolise it. This drug is almost extensively metabolised by your liver which means it makes a few passes through it to use it all up-swallowing it would be the prefered method of administration. Placing it under your tongue would serve no purpose, speed of action, or proper breakdown of the drug unless you dissolve it and swallow it-which is the same as chewing one and eating it-yechh. Some benzos like xanax work a bit quicker under the tongue, but much of the "dose" is actually not used as completely or effectively as is when it is swallowed. drinking lots of water would speed up the breakdown of your med as would taking it on an empty stomach-but by how much-who knows LM — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm
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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Does seroquel go directly to the blood stream simple answer-swallowing them works better-they are a cumulative type med and also not desisgned for sublingual use LM, how long does it take for Seroquel to start working? Days or weeks? Chip it takes about 2 days to reach efective blood and tissue levels and about a week to stabilize per dose-the titration can be ramped up a bit to expediate it LM Thanks everyone. I guess this isn’t something that I can take when feeling bad and get quick results. I was hoping to keep the dosage low but take more as needed. Then again, I’m seeing a new Dr. in 11 days so the meds could change anyway. In my last shrinkette appointment, I told her more things that were just reveled to me about being on the schizo affective side. Basically, it was about a car I owned, and how I sincerely thought it was better than any other car of the same make model and year. It was faster, cornered better, stopped better, you name it, it was better. I remember feeling this way, but I didn’t remember I had told my girlfriend at the time. Well I just talked to her the other day, and she remembers it quite well! Then at the shrinkettes, we got into this conversation about problems going food shopping, and she asked me what bothered me about it. Basically, I worry about everyone in the store watching me. Did I buy something stupid? Seems to be that I always feel everyone pays attention to what I’m doing, when in fact, most people are just worried about getting their own shopping done, not watching what I put in my cart! Then she asked about other things that worry me in the same way. I replied, if I’m mowing the lawn, I worry the neighbors might think "why did he wait so long", or "why is he cutting it already", or "why doesn’t he do it this way, or that way"? Basically, I live my life constantly worried about what others think of me. Driving down the highway, if someone is passing me, often I hide my cigarette so they don’t judge me for being a smoker. If I make a few short trips from the house and back again, I worry what the neighbors think I’m doing. Get the idea? I feel I am constantly being judged by everyone, everywhere. It doesn’t end. Then we got into OCD and how things have to go my way. I told her that quite a few times I have walked out of stores, leaving a full shopping cart of items I just picked out, just because I was disgusted at the long lines and too few cashiers. Sometimes it was anxiety, but lot’s of times I just said "fuck it", if they want to have long lines, they can put my stuff back on the shelves! Even though I just spent a lot of time picking out all the stuff, I do it just to prove my point. So I end up hurting myself. Just on my way home today, I was approaching a part of the road where it narrows to one lane each direction. I was in the right lane, and the sign said "left lane ends". This girl stayed aside of me, just a little behind and on my left. She stayed there, blowing the horn driving in the yellow caution lines, until she was almost at the point of going the wrong way down the two lane road. I was in the right, she was slightly behind me and should have slowed down and moved to the right lane. After backing off, she just kept shooting me the finger. I was laughing and I waved to her, yet I was shaking at the same time. Then when it was two lanes again, she passed me, I smiled and waved, she shot me the bird again. When we got to a long red light, I couldn’t help getting out of the truck and running up to her and kindly told her that she should read the sign, I had the right of way, not her. She just said "Oh, Ok". I felt good, I proved my point (well hopefully next time she will read the sign). But then I had to turn off where I didn’t want to, just so she wouldn’t think I was following her. (sigh) Well that’s a lot longer than I planned, and I feel funny posting all this here, but the schizo group isn’t that great, and you guys & gals certainly are! Tono
most important is what she replied to this-the type of wiring problem you have can be accomodated to with the proper type of therapy-it requires restructuring the way you process information and the beliefs you hold about the things you process-medicating the symptoms away often tends to medicate the person away at the same time-an effective dose would enable you to detune some of the mental static but the ideas you have and the beliefs you have and hold about those ideas is a continuous cognitive and active process that is much more important to deal with-this is the long term method of dealing with some silly thoughts and acting out because of them. Seroquel is a great med, but I have maintained for some time is not the best for you. Hopefully your new doc will concur and take action LM — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm
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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Thanks everyone. I guess this isn’t something that I can take when feeling bad and get quick results. I was hoping to keep the dosage low but take more as needed. Then again, I’m seeing a new Dr. in 11 days so the meds could change anyway. In my last shrinkette appointment, I told her more things that were just reveled to me about being on the schizo affective side. Basically, it was about a car I owned, and how I sincerely thought it was better than any other car of the same make model and year. It was faster, cornered better, stopped better, you name it, it was better. I remember feeling this way, but I didn’t remember I had told my girlfriend at the time. Well I just talked to her the other day, and she remembers it quite well! Then at the shrinkettes, we got into this conversation about problems going food shopping, and she asked me what bothered me about it. Basically, I worry about everyone in the store watching me. Did I buy something stupid? Seems to be that I always feel everyone pays attention to what I’m doing, when in fact, most people are just worried about getting their own shopping done, not watching what I put in my cart! Then she asked about other things that worry me in the same way. I replied, if I’m mowing the lawn, I worry the neighbors might think "why did he wait so long", or "why is he cutting it already", or "why doesn’t he do it this way, or that way"? Basically, I live my life constantly worried about what others think of me. Driving down the highway, if someone is passing me, often I hide my cigarette so they don’t judge me for being a smoker. If I make a few short trips from the house and back again, I worry what the neighbors think I’m doing. Get the idea? I feel I am constantly being judged by everyone, everywhere. It doesn’t end. Then we got into OCD and how things have to go my way. I told her that quite a few times I have walked out of stores, leaving a full shopping cart of items I just picked out, just because I was disgusted at the long lines and too few cashiers. Sometimes it was anxiety, but lot’s of times I just said "fuck it", if they want to have long lines, they can put my stuff back on the shelves! Even though I just spent a lot of time picking out all the stuff, I do it just to prove my point. So I end up hurting myself. Just on my way home today, I was approaching a part of the road where it narrows to one lane each direction. I was in the right lane, and the sign said "left lane ends". This girl stayed aside of me, just a little behind and on my left. She stayed there, blowing the horn driving in the yellow caution lines, until she was almost at the point of going the wrong way down the two lane road. I was in the right, she was slightly behind me and should have slowed down and moved to the right lane. After backing off, she just kept shooting me the finger. I was laughing and I waved to her, yet I was shaking at the same time. Then when it was two lanes again, she passed me, I smiled and waved, she shot me the bird again. When we got to a long red light, I couldn’t help getting out of the truck and running up to her and kindly told her that she should read the sign, I had the right of way, not her. She just said "Oh, Ok". I felt good, I proved my point (well hopefully next time she will read the sign). But then I had to turn off where I didn’t want to, just so she wouldn’t think I was following her. (sigh) Well that’s a lot longer than I planned, and I feel funny posting all this here, but the schizo group isn’t that great, and you guys & gals certainly are! Tono you describe I can relate to. When I am really bad I allways think that I only excist in the eyes of others. I think what they think about me constantly. I don’t have this so much anymore but I sure knows it feels odd and "beside yourself" Much love from Anna
Thanks Anna, besides oversleeping this morning and missing my favorite AA meeting, (I already screamed "XXX Fxxxing Damn it" as loud as I could), I’m actually doing fairly well lately. I am dreading going to my sisters house to see my other sister who is in town for only a day. Just going to her house gives me anxiety, plus they will probably be acting strangely again with the alcohol around me, like it’s going to jump out and get me. But that won’t be enough to keep them from drinking, they will just be weird about it. I come from a large family, and at least half or more are alcoholics. I’m the only one who admitted it and quit. One did admit to me that he knows he is an alcoholic, but he doesn’t know how he could possibly live life without it. Boy of boy, I sure have a way of depressing myself. Tono — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm
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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Thanks everyone. I guess this isn’t something that I can take when feeling bad and get quick results. I was hoping to keep the dosage low but take more as needed. Then again, I’m seeing a new Dr. in 11 days so the meds could change anyway. In my last shrinkette appointment, I told her more things that were just reveled to me about being on the schizo affective side. Basically, it was about a car I owned, and how I sincerely thought it was better than any other car of the same make model and year. It was faster, cornered better, stopped better, you name it, it was better. I remember feeling this way, but I didn’t remember I had told my girlfriend at the time. Well I just talked to her the other day, and she remembers it quite well! Then at the shrinkettes, we got into this conversation about problems going food shopping, and she asked me what bothered me about it. Basically, I worry about everyone in the store watching me. Did I buy something stupid? Seems to be that I always feel everyone pays attention to what I’m doing, when in fact, most people are just worried about getting their own shopping done, not watching what I put in my cart! Then she asked about other things that worry me in the same way. I replied, if I’m mowing the lawn, I worry the neighbors might think "why did he wait so long", or "why is he cutting it already", or "why doesn’t he do it this way, or that way"? Basically, I live my life constantly worried about what others think of me. Driving down the highway, if someone is passing me, often I hide my cigarette so they don’t judge me for being a smoker. If I make a few short trips from the house and back again, I worry what the neighbors think I’m doing. Get the idea? I feel I am constantly being judged by everyone, everywhere. It doesn’t end. Then we got into OCD and how things have to go my way. I told her that quite a few times I have walked out of stores, leaving a full shopping cart of items I just picked out, just because I was disgusted at the long lines and too few cashiers. Sometimes it was anxiety, but lot’s of times I just said "fuck it", if they want to have long lines, they can put my stuff back on the shelves! Even though I just spent a lot of time picking out all the stuff, I do it just to prove my point. So I end up hurting myself. Just on my way home today, I was approaching a part of the road where it narrows to one lane each direction. I was in the right lane, and the sign said "left lane ends". This girl stayed aside of me, just a little behind and on my left. She stayed there, blowing the horn driving in the yellow caution lines, until she was almost at the point of going the wrong way down the two lane road. I was in the right, she was slightly behind me and should have slowed down and moved to the right lane. After backing off, she just kept shooting me the finger. I was laughing and I waved to her, yet I was shaking at the same time. Then when it was two lanes again, she passed me, I smiled and waved, she shot me the bird again. When we got to a long red light, I couldn’t help getting out of the truck and running up to her and kindly told her that she should read the sign, I had the right of way, not her. She just said "Oh, Ok". I felt good, I proved my point (well hopefully next time she will read the sign). But then I had to turn off where I didn’t want to, just so she wouldn’t think I was following her. (sigh) Well that’s a lot longer than I planned, and I feel funny posting all this here, but the schizo group isn’t that great, and you guys & gals certainly are! Tono
you describe I can relate to. When I am really bad I allways think that I only excist in the eyes of others. I think what they think about me constantly. I don’t have this so much anymore but I sure knows it feels odd and "beside yourself" Much love from Anna — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm
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Some benzos like xanax work a bit quicker under the tongue, but much of the "dose" is actually not used as completely or effectively as is when it is swallowed.
I didn’t know that. So much to learn. Thanks LM, love Meryl — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm
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